Awake in the middle of the night

Here I am holding my newborn, Amelia, in the middle of the night, desperate to stay awake. She is having no problem with this task. She is just wide eyed and supposedly hungry even though I have been feeding her sometimes every hour.

We have now survived the first week. It really hasnt been too hard...yet. haha Jakes mom and sister are coming to help January 3rd! Right now the hardest part of having 2 kids so close in age is not being there as much with the oldest anymore. Her daddy is loving all the one on one time he is getting with her. It just makes me a little sad knowing I cant pick her up and comfort her when she needs it. I can get on the floor and cuddle with her but it v just isnt the same as being able to walk with her. This is all because of the csection though, not because of her age. Aleigh, we found out today has hand, foot and mouth disease so she is having a hard time. We are just praying it stays away from Amelia.

Aleigh is just on love with Amelia already. It has been a week and the only hint of jealousy has been lastnight when we gave Amelia her first bottle of breastmilk. Aleigh decided she wanted it and was pointing and screaming for it. I was trying to give her a sippy cup at the same time, which seemed to distract her a little. Besides from that she is constantly watching Amelia and smiling and pointing at her and wanting to touch her. Before we found out Aleigh was sick we were letting her touch her and supervising closely and Aleigh would barely poke her and then would squeal in delight. It is going to be so much fun watching them grow up together. Everyone beforehand would always warn me of how jealous Aleigh was going to be at that age, saying thats what happened with theirs, I always just said oh ok. When I asked them the age gap of their kids they would tell me 16-24 months. It was never that close to 12 months. I read lots of blogs from people with Irish twins and they said that was always one plus is there were no early jealousy issues.

Anyways, its time to take another nap :) I dont call it sleep anymore as it will probably be naps for the next several months.